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So I usually don't trouble people with these sorts of problems of mine unless they're close friends, but right now I'm feeling the need to open up.

Is there anyone here with bipolar disorder who could offer some advice, or share their stories?

I had to quit art school back in November, because I had gone into a mania and was sent to the hospital twice. I've emotionally hurt and frightened the people I most care about. Since then I've still been trying to come to terms that I was bipolar, and the meds I'm taking still don't seem to be doing the trick for me, despite me trying to explain that to my psychiatrists. I know it's a slow process and it's all about trial and error, but I'm so sick of waiting to be happy again. I try to get into the things I usually love doing and I feel nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'd rather be crazy again than just feeling flat out empty, with no love for anything anymore.

I just want to be able to hold out until I get things right again.
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flakface Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know this is an old journal, but I just started watching. Are things looking up?
Demonkitty66 Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2013
I know nothing about bipolar, and little about depression. 
On the other hand, I've got Misophonia.* It's very different, I know, but I know what it feels like to be faced with something you can't seem to do anything to fix... 
All I can do really do is wish you luck, and I hope you get better soon.

* it's where you're weirdly sensitive to a certain sound and hearing it makes you extremely angry or frustrated for no real reason, but more than a normal irritation. It can graduate to being more than the sound; just the action itself. Now that I read over it it sounds kind of stupid but I promise you, it's real, and I've been diagnosed with it, and it sucks. I get it whenever I hear or see people eating or biting their nails (or doing anything with the same sort of gesture)

I also want to say while I'm here that I love your work :)
Gagnraad Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2013
Dear Dark-Sheikah, 

I know exactly what you are going through cause I too am Diagnosed with Bipolar mania disorder but I cant get cured of it plus I am still a test subject to all kinds of medication to get a 
better feeling but mostly end up being tranquilized ( dragon age type of it ^^ ) 

Some times I feel like I could change the world then I would feel like i'm the lowest of lowest in existence after that it would be a grey line I call it a neutral feeling 
but these feelings are storming though the monthes and not in a specific order or for reasons in the present. 

Its hard to deal with I know and it wont be easy to get out of the only thing that helps me out is talking and going out with friends ( not like going to a bar or somthing ) but going to the mall or doing some exercises to get that chemical released in ur head 

If you would like to talk about it you can always give me a message :) 

BUT ALSO! know you are not alone and people really want to help you ... only downside to that is they dont have a clue how to help ya :) 

I do compliment your courage to let the people here know it is a good step in the right direction :) 

Friendly greetz : GabriŽlle  from the Netherlands ( Who also admire your work!! )
Skuldier Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013
I can't imagine what you're going through, as I don't have this myself. But it must be absolutely horrible. I hope that you can get it under control. In the meantime, if you need anything, even just someone to talk to, please let me know. I'm back on dA, and wish I had seen this sooner.
tansyuduri Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Writer
I don't have bipolor but I have reguelr depression. Sometimes finding the right medication takeas awile and the doctors all want to give every medication a good try before ruleing it out. The only thing you can do perhaps in the meantime is take away anything in your life that is making you feel bad about yourself.
ThresholdOfOblivion Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I usually don't go snooping on other people's pages, but I had a feeling.

Now, I can't say that I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder directly, but what I was set with had something my doctors called a 'bipolar component'. I'm in the High Functioning Autism spectrum, and I have been struggling with it all my life. The only thing that I've really found is having a reliable third party to talk to. Parents usually never help. Spouses/relationship partners can help to a degree, but I find it so easy to just take it out on them... which is something you want to avoid at all costs. It helps me to stay grounded even through the hardest trials that life has to offer.

If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to shoot me a note. I do my best to help people that want it :)

Take care!
ppgrainbow Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so sorry to hear that. Nearly two decades ago, I was on my last school year and for some reason, I got really aggressive at one of my parents to a point where I suffered seizures and a depression that lasted years.

Due to this depression, I ended up constantly overeating to a point where it went completely out of control. At it's peak, I weighted as much as 283 lbs and faced serious health problems.

Today, I'm struggling to keep my weight under control and looking to eat less and exercise more.

I'm really sorry that you had to quit art school months ago due to this disorder and I hope that you find a way to get back on your feet soon! :hug::heart:
dark-sheikah Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, I'm sorry to hear that =(
:hug: Thanks though, I hope you get back to where you want to be and I wish you good health :heart:
ppgrainbow Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much! :huggle::heart:

I sure hope that you get back to drawing soon since you stopped doing it back in November! :cuddle:
LeeandYukie Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
I can't say that I've been formally diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but I have had a few people close to me with Bipolar and similar disorders. My grandmother had bipolar disorder and she was usually one of the kindest people I've ever known, even when she would go into the depressive part of her condition. Whatever she was feeling on a certain day, I still loved her and made sure that she was feeling alright. One of my friends is on medication for Bipolar, but I know that it doesn't always work, so one minute she can be hyped up about a new video game she just got in the mail and the next she can be bawling her eyes about something she can't really explain. I've had the same type of feeling before. I'm planning on going to get checked out for depression. My mom has deep depression. I know that it hurts, and sometimes it feels like there's nothing that you can do. It just helps to know that there are always people out there who are there for you. Even people you haven't met yet. They're there. Just around the corner, waiting to make your day light up like the sun. It's always a pleasant surprise to meet people like that. Your friends are always ready to support you, and it does get better as you go on and learn to cope with it better. Here <3 [link] I hope you have a great day and would be overjoyed to be a person to get to know you better so maybe I could add to the group of people who are there to bring you up when you feel like you're spiraling. Cheers~
dark-sheikah Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much =) <3
LeeandYukie Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013
You're very much welcome :heart:
Zexy-Chan Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Bipolar disorder is tough.I have it,and even though my meds work,they don't make everything happy.Sorry you feel bad.It WILL get better,though.
PurpleMoonFang Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
well im not bipolar, so i cant say i know exactly what you're going through, but i can say that ive been so depressed that ive been to a hospital and didnt even talk while i was there. i just finished my depression session a few days ago, but i'll basically just have a short period of complete anger or emptiness and no matter what i do i just feel like crawling in a deep dark hole until the world around me doesnt know who i am anymore. i want to just consume myself in the black hole of my depression and i dont care for anything or anyone.

im not trying to get sympathy, im trying to let you know that there are peeps out there like me who may not know exactly what you're going through but can still relate to alot of it. i hope this helps a little and i hope you feel better. im sry i cant do more. im here if you want to talk =3=
By-the-By Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:C <3
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